What would you have done differently?
I always wondered how i’d actually feel if today was my last. Honestly, I won’t be satisfied. I have never truly lived yet.. There’s just a lot to be done and I know that now. The fat project. I can’t boast of being consistent profitable. Haven’t seen the world, who am I even kidding? I haven’t even seen a giraffe in real life. I don’t like the fact that I can count the number of people i’ve helped. My family needs to taste what wealth feels like. My nephew, siblings and the least is endless. Even “me”. My freedom is still hanging. My mom isn’t fully proud if her daughter. I made a promise.
Alan Wilson Watts once said,”We are living in a culture entirely hypnotized by the illusion of time, in which the so-called present moment is felt as nothing but an extremely small hairline between an all-powerfully relevant past and an absorbingly important future. We have no present. Our consciousness is almost completely preoccupied with memory and expectation. We do not realize that there never was, is, nor will be any other experience than present experience. We are therefore out of touch with reality. We confuse the world as talked about, described, and measured with the world which actually is.”
All your life, you have always been different. Like “Oliver Twist”—You’ve always wanted more. Embracing the beauties of life and going through it a step at at time. Favour, oh! my precious Favour. Do you even know who you are? Do you even know your worth? I’ve seen you, I birthed you, all you’ve ever gotten from life hasn’t always been on a platter.
Memory served, I remember how you’ll want to finish your work before you get to eat. I’d remember how you hunger for success. But Favour, you never believed in yourself. There is something hindering your success, There’s a reason you aren’t were you’re supposed to be.
I don’t know for sure what that is. However, I think one of the reason is because, you’ve never felt good enough. You never appreciated and celebrated your wins. So, to you—It seems like you aren’t winning. That doubt; that fear.. That’s the “hindrance”. .